“Spinehorn Minotaur” Magic the Gathering Modern Horizons

When I look back I think I have been a black and white artist all my life. Not talking about the colors black or white. More right or wrong, good or bad.

When you are doing an illustration there is tons of things that need to go right. I think of those things as questions that needs a right answer. Is the composition clear? is the figure seeming live enough? are the colors the right mood? everything down to: is this brushstroke showing the


form right or is this dot too bright. Actually every stroke or swipe of the pencil or stylus is a question that needs an answer. If there is no question, there is no deliberate answer and then its all random and doesn’t matter.

But my mind tend to work like this, with the questions and answers. Constantly. And I imagine that all of you out there feel the same. When a paintings goes sideways it usually feels like you chose the wrong bunch of answers at a certain point. But lately i have had the notion that it need not be this black and white. Instead of  evaluation every stroke or line in either Good or bad I am trying to make myself think beyond the labels. And the  reason is this: Bad equals wrong, good equals continue its okay. So if everything is not Good there is no decreasing value. its just all bad, down the drain, to hell: shit! I tend not to notice the good. Cos when its good I just continue merely until somethings goes bad. So with this mindset, paintings is a process of avoiding it all goes to hell. its a balance maneuver where you always fall. Because, lets face it: Nothing is ever perfect. Especially not paintings.


Also the thing is. if a stroke or a color or a hand is either only Good or Bad, what happens when you cannot change it from bad to good? You end up being a failure. in your own mind.  I have been there plenty. loathing in self pity at how this is the moment I stall out and it is only downhill from here: And most of it just because I did a poorly chosen highlight on a spearhead.

Well; here is my solution: I try to change the words Good or Bad in my mind to comfort and discomfort. Mainly because those words raise questions. “Why is this shape making you uncomfortable, Jesper”? is just way better than: This is a shitty shape, Jesper. You are stupid for having made this to begin with, WHY ARE YOU NOT BETTER”?

The question of why some element is making you uncomfortable opens up for gentler questions. What should be changed for this to be more comfortable? to make it seem more in tune with what you are trying to achieve? And asking those gentler questions is super important. Actually; I find the constant questioning myself to be the most important aspect of growing as an artist and learning from your mistakes…I mean discomfort.

I want to end my argumentation your Honor, with an example.

The recently spoiled image of “Spinehorn Minotaur” had a different sketch at first. The sketch was approved and i was in the process of transferring it to a watercolor paper to paint it, when my mind started acting up. “This is barely mediocre…its just a dude with an axe…no motion no expression no nothing”. I went home feeling like a fraud, because of this horrible conversation with myself. But next day I pulled myself together and sketched another and another and another until I ended at a new sketch. I resent it for approval and got the green light to go, and I am so much happier with the result. I wish, that I at that time, had been able to nuance my inner voice a bit. Better even, if I had listened to myself while sketching that first drawing. Asking myself why I felt “wrong” about it. What could be different about it? Asking questions is fundamental for an illustration. Ignoring the questions and muscling through is not only dumb, but it prevents you from learning anything.

My new approach is painting towards comfort, and asking discomfort why it is there?